As the other girls mentioned we made it thru our first week of PT and they are all right it's NO JOKE! It's very tough but i know we can ALL do it.
Since Dre wants us to be HONEST and TURTHFUL on here..... Here's my honesty!!
Every day I have to tell myself that "I CAN DO THIS" because I’m not going to lie. I still find myself at times wanting to just say "F" this and call it a day because I miss hanging out with my friends, going out having cocktails and just living my life. I’ve had to turn down two weekend get a way trips because I don’t have time to miss out on any training. I have A LONG WAY TO GO as do the rest of the BABs team and it’s hard as HELL!!! Especially knowing that we only have 3mths and a few days to go. It just still seems so surreal to me. I look at myself and I can see some change but I’m still trying to convince myself that I will be ready for this show come May 7th but man it just seems impossible to me.
I'm a very social able person and i enjoy going out and having fun and right now i can't say I’m having that much fun. Don't get me wrong I’m excited about the end results and I LOVE working out with the BABs team but it's VERY VERY hard for me as I’m sure it’s hard for all of us doing this. I’m not one to sit in my house and do nothing it's not who i am and I’ve never been that way, but right now it's all i can do because doing anything else is way too hard at least for me it is! We all know temptation is a bitch so instead of putting myself in a situation to be tempted I just don’t and that’s what is killing me BUT at the same time I’m very dedicated to doing this and I’m very dedicated to Dre and the BABs team. This seriously is the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life… I think getting my divorce 11yrs ago was easier than training for this show and that was no walk in the park either....
Having said all that!!
I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and I just need to focus on that light getting brighter and I’m also trying VERY VERY hard to stay as positive as I can thru all this.
Sorry my blog is not as cheerful as the others but right now I’m just having a really hard time with all this so just bare with me. I’ll come around I always do but I’m human like the rest of us and right now I’m having a very hard time. Not only with this training but I have some personal things in my life that are also very challenging for me these days but I’m taking one day at a time and that’s all I can do.
I take my hat off to you Stephanie… Girl I don’t know how you did this alone. There is no way in hell I would be able to do all this without the BABs team and Dre.
That’s all I have for now and again sorry it’s not a cheerful blog today but on a side note at least I’m smiling today!! :)
I hope everyone has a wonderful day!
V
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