PRU ~ WEEK 36

WEEK 36
Saturday, October 2, 2010
This past week was a doozie to say the least. For the first time in months I lost some motivation and focus. The promise to myself is that I have worked so hard, so after today its back on track no matter what. I am only six months out and I owe it to myself and deserve to complete this challenge.

Let’s start with the “life issues” that got me off track this week … First, without going into a lot of detail, I found out some serious health news regarding my mother about a week ago. This week the gravity of the matter really sank in. Its so hard to watch your parents age and especially when some of their issues could be non-existent if people weren’t so damn selfish. Pray for both my parents please.

Second, our company/industry is/has been going through layoffs for the past three years. This week we (reps) anticipated the first round of a series of rumored layoffs for the remainder of the year. This will be the “third” round of layoffs this year. The company has a history of not telling us what is going on in terms of timelines, etc., and they tend to layoff around Thanksgiving. They announced a re-organization on Friday, but the gauntlet is supposed to swing in the upcoming weeks. So folks are on pins and needles and I guess it’s finally getting to me. It’s rough out here and though sometimes I feel like I need a kick in the ass to pursue my “true passion”, I also realize that I’m not single anymore and I have to think about more than just self. However, I believe that God has my back no matter what and the worst thing one can do is deny themselves of pursuing their passion – especially if you are fortunate enough to know what that is. I have searched for years to nail down what it is for me, and I am certain that after coming to the same conclusion for the past 20 years, I have finally locked it in. So … either way it goes … I’m going for it!

Lastly, my baby was sick. So that too threw me off my workout schedule. Nothing and No one will EVER come before him. So needless to say after a couple of sleepless nights I missed a couple of days of training this week.

I feel so guilty. I have been working so hard and I cannot afford to get lax now. This is the final stretch. All I can think about is the competition that "got their workout on today". I did manage to pull myself together last night and get in an hour of cardio at 10:30 pm. Yes PM and on a FRIDAY NIGHT! That’s because I HAD to do something … today was a different story. I feel like I’ve lost some muscle mass and that frightens me. Today, I purposely decided that my body is tired and needs the rest. It is what it is ... I've just got to correct moving forward. Back in the zone, beginning tomorrow.

On a funnier note ... I know I'm still checked-in, cuz my baby had to bake cupcakes today. Do you all know how hard it was to NOT lick my finger when a drop of the mix got on it. You'd be amazed how quickly your mind will automatically move your lips to lick the spoon! WAIT A MINUTE ... I DIDN'T DO IT!!! Not even a drop! Now that's some mad willpower!

For the next six weeks, IT”S ALL OUT … BRING NUMBER ONE HOME … GET IT GET IT!!! I only have six weeks left and I WILL get this done. Dre said when she competed that people were telling her, you never place in your first competition. We all know what Dre told’em (smile)!!! I feel the same. As long as “I”, CONTINUE to stay FOCUSED and COMMITTED as I have been, NO ONE will STOP me from contending for FIRST PLACE … NO ONE! I’ve got the right trainer, posing coach and mental focus … the body result is just the by-product of the culmination of all this GREATNESS coming together to achieve this feat.

Pray for my family. Please write me … the support is needed and appreciated!

Peace & Blessings!